People's Reactions....

I have been so surprised and upset by peoples reactions.  It has not been an easy decision to get to this point, but I had not actually considered how peoples views and opinions would effect me.

My Step-mums reaction is a completely supportive one. She has watched my pain and struggles and feels that this is now my only option and she has been planning how she can help and support me in whatever way she can. So fantastic!

My Dads view was "just stop eating so much!".  Not the most helpful thing to say... But now that we have all discussed it further he can now understand a little more and is supportive.

My Boyfriend was very negative and it took me a while to mop up the tears... He said that I should just eat less and exercise more. Then told me about calories and food types (like I dont know after my many years of diets and stuff).  In the end he said I should do what I felt was right and listen to the Specialist, which I of course will.

Four of my girlfriends which I told have been really supportive, although initially shocked.  I have had the usual responses of "you dont need to loose weight" and "your not big enough for that" and my absolute favourite buy my Gran of "But you just have heavy bones!" Bless....  However nice everyone is trying to be I have just had to be quite direct with them, and I just say that No, I dont have heavy bones, I have heavy fat. Yes I am heavy enough as I have a BMI of 38! And yes I need to loose about 6 stone! I am fat and have eaten too much for most of my life.

The reactions of people have made me quite hesitant to tell my other friends, and yet I dont want to be in the situation that Fern Britton was where she was attacked from every side....